I feel so awkward, alone, and misinterpreted constantly. I never know how to really get the thoughts out of my head into words. I can't and don't want to argue my point, and I can't regurgitate scripture to show that what I'm thinking making sense. It just does. I pray constantly that I am pursuing truth. I want to stop feeling like the wierdo who has disbelief and doubts. Thats all I want.
Instead I feel very alone. Sometimes I've given up and I just keep all the questions, changes, and thoughts inside because I don't want to deal with the hurt. This is unhealthy, and is a complete contradiction to my personality.
Does anyone else feel alone? How have you ladies dealt with the struggle of emerging and finding people who throw the old answers in your face all the time? Do you try to fold those answers in somehow with new thoughts? How have you dealt with the people that you love and trust who make you feel like you have gone off the deep end?