One thing I have learned so far from emerging Christians is that we can see God in so many other ways than just the rigid conservative cultures we've grown up in (at least for me). I have begun to see that there is goodness in everything and I believe that goodness is God. But I have questions....
We have a group of friends that we meet with every two weeks or so that gets together and talks about spiritual things. We have a couple of atheists, a buddist thinker, two pastor's kids, some skeptics, and then some followers of Christ. I love these people, they are my dear friends. We are all very different and I look forward to hearing their thoughts and opinions.
We typically start our converstaion by watching a nooma video by Rob Bell. It just helps to get the conversation going. My husband and I never try to push our views we just all share openly and honestly how we feel about the videos. It is quite interesting.
The last couple of times though, I have walked away feeling like my faith is slowly being shattered. Sometimes I agree with what the atheists say, the buddist thought sounds interesting and the skeptics questions are all very thought provoking. Most of the time our conversations end with determining that we all just need to be good people. Most share that they don't feel like they need to be associated with God to do good things in the world and they definately don't need or believe scriptures to do good things or be a good person.
Our friends all want to do good things with their lives. They are all striving to be good people. They are full of love, energy, and passion. Yet, not all of them believe that God is out there. Most of them struggle with Jesus.
So How am I supposed to feel about this? I'm not trying to "convert" but I do feel a sense that somehow these conversations are both good and bad. Somehow, after walking away, my faith seems rattled and I feel the need to just talk to God about it, hoping and praying that the mustard seed is still there with in my heart.
I'm not sure where the "preach the gospel" aspect comes in to play in the emerging culture. Does it come in to play? I still feel the pressure of wanting my friends to have a faith, but I'm not really sure how that plays out at this point. Its not my number one goal, but somehow after these conversations, my faith is just being chiseled away.
Does anyone else understand what I am trying to say or has gone through any other experience like this one?